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If you showed up to the meetup and saw a random brown-skinned Kasane Teto cosplayer, that's me. Why Teto? I didn't wanna spend money dressed up as Cassandra so yeah. Teto it is. We'll continue with that.

For a good portion of my life I was hindered with issues surrounding my disabilities, which I won't get into as it's personal, but the main one being crippling anxiety. For about like 3-5ish years I haven't seen the light of day at all, only really going out for family events or just to grab a snack but rarely ever for anything major that lasts more than 2 hours. Whether that's due to my extreme anxiety disorder or my leg disability it depends but that lead to me being scared to show up.

I came out of my shell yesterday. For the first time in a long time in my life. That's a good thing. That's a really good thing.

I don't really participate much in the Newgrounds community due to my own issues. I do multimedia, but most of my stuff is rather personal as I forget to post often. Originally I thought I was going to feel very out of place in this community, especially showing up as a fucking vocal synth cosplay character out of nowhere with a shitty wig. I don't know everything, I'm not educated about everyone, so it was pretty scary. But surprisingly I had no issues here. Everyone was really sweet and caring, very understanding and kind to this event. Especially since it's the first time in years I've been to somewhere in public as it felt like a great introduction to the world again.

I'm glad I got to see a lot of artists I look up to there, even some new ones I never seen or met before befriending them in person. I guess people are probably more scary online compared to IRL which eases a lot of my anxieties. A lot of my viewpoints on life and on people definitely have changed because of this and I want to aspire being closer to my art career more than ever. I may not be the best artist or animator or editor or whatever, but I will try.

Pico stuff has always been something that is important to me, as much as it's goofy a bit to say, I don't understand myself why I'm so obsessed with it, especially Cassandra specifically. I've done many projects with her before and will continue to do so in the future, but I feel like if that one little obsession of Cassandra didn't exist I probz just wouldn't be here today.

I really appreciate @StormyDew for helping me come out of my shell and helping me with this process. She's been my friend for so many years and I wouldn't be here without her mainly. Also to @YendorNG for being with us too, he helped carry me cuz my legs gave up walking back to the hotel c': I also got to see some old friends I knew for years again which made me cry in my MAKEUPPPP UGHhh.

It was nice to see people draw Cassandra on the Cassandra page too! I love seeing how different people draw her, this is one out of a few pages, I wish I got more signatures sadly :c I'm totes gonna like, frame this or smthn LOL.

P much I had fun, I feel great, thank you for having me here basically yada yada. I will never forget the bonds I made with everyone there. c:

(Also I couldn't grab my card so if anyone has it please take a pic and show it to me!)

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